The Return... for a Reboot...

I am full-blown in Menopause now...

Life since starting this blog has gone all kinds of ways, and I’ll revisit those as the blog posts go on.

What a Long Strange Trip It’s Been!...
(The lyrics mean something in a lot of ways... LOL... maybe you will pick up on it along the way.)

…but anyway… (we can come back to the Truckin’ lyrics later)

I’m at a low, low point in my life.
Depression. Don’t like where I live. Don’t like how life is going. I’ve just been tolerating it because I don’t feel like doing anything.

But that’s not quite fair to say.... on either end of this stupid stick!
But... I don’t want to get into all that right now, because that would take me way off track, and this; THIS!, this is all about this burst of back on track inspiration and idea…

Blog my reboot journey.
You know, “get back truckin’ on.”

I am (sort of, not holding my breath) under the impression that if I blog this reboot journey, maybe I can be a content creator who makes some $ in the process; or from the aftermath, by making a course or something. Like, let’s be real… it could happen. I would love for it to happen.

But... *sigh* ... yeah, I know this goes against the fundamentals of manifestation... (which I’ll be implementing)...but I’m not expecting it. I'm not being negative about it tho... I am totally taking the neutral attitude here!

Reason being (and partly why I am depressed) over the last few… few more… years, I’ve had great ideas, got excited, knew this was “my thing,” put the work into it and…
crickets.

I suck at marketing.
So expect it? Nah.

If it happens, it’ll just happen organically...

So how did I even get to this point?
I was sitting here, balls deep in a pit of menopausal brain fog: overwhelm, depression, executive dysfunction… AND SO ON.
F*ck. I’m just tired of it.

I want to get my life in order. I’ve wanted that for a long time now.
But I’m having a hard time.

So I went to the internet. Found some kind of test.
Turned out it was a pitch for an app.
I’m a broke-ass crone—no app for me.

But you know what I do have?
I have tarot cards!!!

OH... and I would like to mention that at this time... Mercury is in retrograde and he came on super strong towards me... mostly shitty drivers and that causing me anxiety.



Back to the cards.... Two cards per position instead of one. I wanted “what to face” and “how to fix.”

I used the elemental spread, and two different decks: Fey and Shadowland.

Shadowland felt perfect for the darker side; the stuff I need to face. You know… the shadow.
And the bright, cheerful, fear-free Fey deck was the one I chose for the “how to fix” half.

  • FIRE: Tower ~ 2 of Wands 
  • EARTH: Queen of Pentacles rx ~ The Empress
  • AIR: 8 of Swords ~ High Priestess
  • WATER: Queen of Cups rx ~ The Moon
  • SPIRIT: The Hanged Man ~ 3 of Wands
If you want to see what I had to say about those and my reflection of the reading, you can go to my Ko-Fi.
BUT.... in a nutshell... those cards are why I am here (writing this- HP in Air) now... to have some sort of personal accountability and 'make' myself do something for a change. 
This is my first step in my 'reboot' journey! 

So Mercury retrograde... a great time for reflection, review, reassessment, reconstruction, just pick any of the 're' words...like REBOOT... that is RE.... and BOOT... like a boot to kick myself in the ass!
Here is what Mercury and me (my natal) looks like right now.

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